Well, I have 22 books checked out of the library now. Only two of them are fiction. So, today will be a day of reading and cleaning and maybe some crafting. The trip out to Cosby for the gather should give me plenty of reading time as well.

I'm looking forward to seeing my Dragon again. Unfortunately, he is going to have to work during the day, but at least we will have the nights together.

I looked at the weather for the weekend and it is predicted that there will be much rain in both Nashville and Cosby, so I am making sure to pack my really big umbrella and a couple extra changes of clothes along with two extra pairs of old shoes. I'm also nursing a germ of an idea on how to make my shoes more waterproof. There may be more on that later.

Almost half the day is gone, so I had better get some stuff done. Blessed be!

I have been at Mamma Shayla's house this weekend. The Monkey is with Tractor. It has been wonderful to sleep in two mornings in a row. That just doesn't happen so often anymore.

I have a traditional classic music playlist going right now. I'm feeling a little moody because I just got off the phone with my mom and she and i are having problems right now. I can't tell her about the things that are important to me because she can't understand them. There is a huge gulf between us and I don't know how I'm ever going to bridge it unless we get professional help.

Anyway... Something more pleasant... I have finally been able to get some work done on that Wicca homework assignment I blogged about so long ago. This is good. It will still be a while before I can post the finished work, but I feel much better about it now that it's started.

Yesterday, I went with Mamma Shayla, her Whirlwind child, and Shayla's mom to see some sheep herding trials. The Whirlwind was bored and wouldn't behave, so we didn't stay long, but what I did get to see was interesting.

Tonight, if we can get enough people together, Scott is going to DM a D&D game. I've never really played before, so this should be interesting. I'll try to remember to let you readers know how it goes.

I had a great lunch and girl's movie night with Strings on Friday before Scott picked me up to bring me here to Mamma Shayla's. We went to Kroger and got an oven pizza and some other goodies, then we went back to my house to watch <u>Take the Lead</u>. I love dancing movies.

I haven't done one of these in a while.

Gratitude Journal:

1. Today is my 6-month anniversary with Dragon!!!

2. Mamma Shayla.

3. My son is happy and healthy.

4. My love and Master, Dragon.

5. I got to sleep in this weekend!!!

That's all I've got for you at the moment. I hope everyone had a great weekend. Blessed Be!

Good morning!

This morning is better than yesterday in terms of my energy level. Switching my Levoxyl to bed time has really helped a lot.

Today, the plan is to go downtown and get my State ID to replace the one that was in my wallet when it was stolen just over a week ago. After that, I will go to the library to pick up the books I've put on hold. Then, I will probably come back home and do some more house and craft work. I hope to make it a very productive day.

Blessed be!

It's so easy to sit here and daydream about my hopes for the future. I so long for the time that I can find myself out in the garden, picking vegies for a dinner stew.

I wish to sit in front of my spinning wheel by the hearth, drafting home-grown flax or yucca fiber to the spindle. Maybe we will have some mulberry bushes to feed a silk-worm farm and I can make fine silk shawls to sell to tourists.

My son will be older, of course. His little sister (as yet un-conceived) might be playing with hand-made dolls beside me as I work. She will give them herbal remedies for their head colds and will tuck them in with an herbal dream pillow as I will have done for her many times by then.

I will hear Monkey come in from helping his step-father shear the sheep or care for the rabbits and he will ask me what's for supper. I'll gesture toward the stew cauldron cooking by the fire and tell him to give it a stir for me then go set the table.

My love and mate will come in at that point and give me a deep kiss before kneeling down to ask Lilith what she's been up to. Then he will look up and tell me that James, his first-born, is in the barn finishing up with the pigs and will be in after he washes up.

Over dinner, we will discuss the little goings on of the homestead. Dragon will ask me about the silk worms and tell me how there is a tree down on the north side of the hill that he will chop up tomorrow for firewood. We talk about the next things that need to be planted in the garden.

The children will help clean up after dinner and Dragon will remind me that his second child, Kara, is coming to spend the week next week so I need to make sure that her bed is aired and ready in the girls' room.

Yes... So easy to sit here and daydream. Now the day is almost half gone and I haven't gotten much of anything done.

Thank you for reading my ramblings, friends. Blessed be.

I took my thyroid medicine last night right before bed and do feel better this morning. I may actually be able to get something done today. It's amazing how such a small glad can cause so much trouble.

The agenda today was going to include a trip to the library, but I don't have any cash with which to pay for a bus ticket, so I'm staying home. I will be doing house and craft work. I might take time out to watch a movie.

Blessed Be!

I've been having issues with fatigue lately. I'm fairly certain that it's thyroid related and am going to see if changing the time of day I take my medication helps any. I'm supposed to take it on an empty stomach and have instead been taking it with breakfast just like my other meds. So, starting tonight, I'm going to take it right before bed. I'll try to remember to blog about any change.

I have not been doing a whole lot with my craft work. I've been slowly working on two projects only. One is a crochet shawl that I started over a year ago and am just now about finished with the edging. The second is a knitted scarf that I intend to embroider with some sort of celtic design. I really need to be doing more spinning so I can finish the second pouch for Grandma Gardener, but spinning takes more energy than crochet or knit.

That's all I feel like writing just now. Blessed be.

I spin in the deep-heart gladness of the early day, arms outstretched to catch the sunrays as they pour out over the roofs and trees. The dawn is my sister and we laugh together as she dances the sunlight into the world.

I relax in the comforting warmth of the noonday sun, eyes closed and breathing in contentment. The noon is my sister and we talk calmly together as she sedately paces the midday sky.

I stand in the golden rays of the setting sun, farewell in my eyes and peace in my heart. The evening is my sister and we stand together in silence as we bid the sun a fond goodnight.

I lie in the darkness asleep in my bed, safe and warm in the arms of my dreams. The night is my sister and she holds me in comforting concealment as the stars march silently across the blackness of space.

~~by Cardea

Laddies and gents. I will be unavailable for the most part next week as I will be going on Monday to visit Dragon. I will leave on the Greyhound at approximately 1AM and return on Thursday at 8:30PM. I hope everyone has a happy, safe, and productive week.

Blessed be.

Hello Friends. Yesterday, I cleaned out my closet and found that I have two big baskets and one very large shopping bag full of yarn, plus a drawer and an overflowing box of fabric. Needless to say, my stash is well stocked and I should probably not add to it for a good while.

Feburary is for Finishing update... I failed. I finished two projects in the first week, but then I lost my head and went shopping. I ended up buying some awesome leaf-shaped beads that I couldn't resist putting to use immediately. I had started a new necklace before I could even remember what month it was! The good thing is that I did go on and finish the piece quickly. It's looks awesome, by the way. (See below.)

That's all I feel like writting at this moment. Blessed be!

Well, I guess I ought to bite the bullet and write about this... I got fired Friday. The reasons aren't really important. What I'm going to do about it is first file for unemployment and WIC and food stamps and government funded health care for the Monkey and hopefully myself. Then I'm going to both look for a job and look into higher education.

As far as the job goes, I need something full time that I can do without getting seriously stressed. Stress is unavoidable, but there are jobs that don't have the kind of stress I've had with jobs these past several years. I need something that pays well enough for me to support myself and my Monkey child and also gives me enough money to go see my Dragon from time to time. I'm not terribly particular at this point; I just need something that makes me enough money to live on without giving me a nervous breakdown.

The good news is that I have filed my income tax and will be getting a good return in a few weeks. I can't tell you how much safer that makes me feel.

Some more good news (in the long run) is that any money I put into my job hunt is tax deductible. It's about time I got back into the habit of keeping accurate records.

Regarding the thought of going back to school... I will have to take remedial courses, but that's fine with me. I want to see about getting a degree in Library Sciences and Botany... maybe Journalism as well. I'm almost positive that I can get government help for school and I'm going to do my research and ask around to find out what to do. It has always been my intention to go to collage; I never wanted to go through my whole life with nothing higher than a high school diploma.

Well, I have things to do, so I'm going to wrap this up with a...

Gratitude Journal:

1. I have friends who love me no matter where I work

2. My son is happy and healthy

3. I am in no danger of starving

4. I still have the love of my darling Master, Dragon

5. I now have time to go back to the YMCA